I've been anorexic for about 6-7 months now. I never lost so much weight that I was hospitalized, but I was pretty underweight. My BMI was about 17.3. I'm 13 and was slim before so the weight loss made me look like a skeleton. I gained weight but my period wouldn't come back, even after 4 months.
Then, I gave up and returned to my disordered eating. This time, I didn't lose as much weight but hair fell out. So now I have no period, thinning hair and a messed up metabolism. I don't want to recover because it wouldn't fix anything so I might as well be anorexic for the rest of my life. I already messed up my body, what's more to lose. It's not like I can turn back time.
It was so hard for me to eat more and after all my hard work, my period never came back. All that work for nothing. So now when I'm forced to eat more, I just throw up after.
I feel guilty for making my family worry, so I just pretend to eat. No one gets hurt. My parents work all the time so they wouldn't notice. As long as I keep my BMI above 17.5 I'll be fine. Don't tell me the health problems that come with an eating disorder because I already know. It's too late now. I don't care.
I don't really know why I'm posting this. It's just that I'm so frustrated. I eat and it all goes to my thighs. I just feel like my body is completely ruined and there's nothing I can do to fix this. I REALLY hate my thighs. Plus, I'll never have a normal metabolism. I'll gain weight with everything I eat. So what's the point?
Answer on Can I ever recover (anorexia)?
No you wont gain weight with everything you eat.
yes you will have a normal metabolism again.
You CAN get better.
You will get better.
It's NEVER too late.
It's not too late..
You can get through it.
You period will come back.
You hair will grow out beautifully.
An eating disorder is a terrible and one of the hardest things a young girl could struggle with. Your still young and there still is so much hope! you have a good 60 plus years ahead of you and you can live them healthy and vibrant. Its just going to take some work with a therapist, it will take time.. more than months, youll possibly have to keep seeing a therapist for as long as it takes and maybe after that. But I have faith in you, many people have overcome this terrible disorder and lived long happy lives.. thats why I believe that you can too. If you are depressed there are medications that you can take and they will make you feel happy, and you will crave life again, they will give you mental energy so that you can work on your issues and create a good healthy life for yourself. I know that you can beat this because I struggled with an eating disorder too... and I overcame 9 years of controling, obsessive, harmful ways. I was so weak and so lifeless, i had hope in nothing. I decided I didn't want to live anymore and overdosed.. when i woke up with a tube in my mouth leading down to my throat was when i realized it was the last straw and i need to get help and stop hurting myself and everyone around, i wanted to be happy. And now.. I'm happy. And you can be happy too.. all it takes is telling someone I need help.
@PAT.. its so easy for you to read this and just say "get over it" and look at it like a bullimic convinces themself they have a problem when they dont. When its actually the opposite. I hate it when people tell others to just "stop" doing something, or just stop being depressed.. its not that easy, thats not the way that it works. This is behavior we have taught ourselves for years and are addicted to.. it takes time to work through and get better from.. and when we do get better, we're much stronger people than whoever you are "pat"
